Baby Dedication

Finley’s Baby Dedication is this Sunday at 9AM at Grace Chapel…  I am so excited for this day to come.

For those of you that are wondering what is a Baby Dedication? (I borrowed this explanation from Real Life Church).

“Baby Dedication is an opportunity to publicly…
Thank God for the amazing and precious gift of your child.
Declare your intentions to raise your child in a Christian home.
A benchmark you can return to time and time again.
A family dedication, where the parents commit themselves to follow biblical principles and to raise their children according to God’s best.
Not only are you dedicating your child to God, you are dedicating yourselves, as parents, to Christ and the church.

What About Baptism?
Baby Dedication does not involve baptism. We believe that baptism is meant to take place at a time when an individual makes a personal decision to follow Christ and is old enough to repent of sin and confess Jesus publicly. Some people think that if a child dies before being baptized he will not go to heaven. We have confidence in a loving God who welcomes the little children. Jesus said, “Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them; for the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these…” (Matthew 19:14 NIV).”

We are so excited to share this event with our friends and family that can attend. To thank God for Finley. To thank our friends and church family at Grace for praying so earnestly for her. I appreciate everyone who has walked with us through this journey so much.

Finley had a great 9 month check up with her Pediatrician. Still on track and hanging out in the 50th percentile for weight and on track developmentally. She is getting stronger and stronger every day. She has started doing “pull ups” on the bar in her chair. It is funny to watch. No crawling yet.  As a mother of 2 I am actually ok with that. I know it will come and when it does – more baby proofing will be in order.

We got the call about scheduling her next ultrasound for June 24th.. I am just praying with all my heart that this time the bile duct will have shrunk and that there is no cyst in there.  No reherniation  and no Choledochal cyst.  My bold prayers. I just don’t want her to have to go through any more surgeries. If it comes to that, I know it will be ok- but I am going to pray for intercession that it won’t come to that.  I have seen God do amazing things in this last year. Not just in our lives. That has been such a gift to pray for other families and see how God has responded and worked in other peoples lives as well.  I am not worried about the “alleged” cyst. I think about it from time to time and I pray. I shared this verse with a friend yesterday and it is one of my favorites;

“Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.” Matthew 6:34

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Love and Dread

I both love and dread Finley’s follow up appointments. I love being able to get some reassurance that all those organs are staying put where they are supposed to be, that the stitches are holding and her patch hasn’t sprung any leaks.  I love showing off my miracle baby. I love them gushing over her chubby belly, thighs and cheeks. But I dread the drive. I am always overcome with memories as I drive the same route that I took during Finley’s 49 days in the hospital and I always get a few butterflies on the way. I dread how Finley cries during the ultrasound and now there is nothing I can do to soothe her. Apparently the last hospital stay and the NPO time has made Finley equate the binky with starvation and it no longer quiets her down. And I dread the waiting for the results.  After the ultrasound tech finished her part of the exam, she goes to the senior doctor to make sure she got all the shots required. With a screaming, moving baby – this is not easy to acquire. For some reason yesterday this took an extra long time to get them to return to the room. In that 30 minutes I started to worry that this time lapse meant something more sinister. His face and attitude was very somber and he got to the task at hand with a seriousness and gravity that made my heart still. It seemed like he was focusing on the diaphragm area and kept taking the same views. I started to get more nervous. I prayed urgently to God that this this wasn’t another reherniation. My heart began to beat even faster and my stomach was just doing flip flops. I finally voiced my concern and asked, “are there signs of reherniation?” The doctor replied “I can’t say yet – I am still trying to determine that. It is hard to see clearly.” Not the reassurance I was hoping for.  The next 15 minutes seemed to take an eternity and when he finally said, “I see no signs of reherniation” I burst into tears of relief. Once again, I let the fear creep its way in and allowed it to play in the playground of my mind.  We are not friends. You are not welcome here fear.

We made our way up to the Surgeons office for our appointment and Dr J kept saying that she really is a perfectly normal healthy baby. How amazing are those words? They are going to continue to watch for reherniation – but what he is really concerned about is her bile duct. You may remember where we last left off – an almost surgery in October (https://finleyanabelle.wordpress.com/2010/10/12/no-cyst-i-repeat-there-is-no-cyst/) that was cancelled because the blockage went away and Dr Bliss said that there probably had never been a cyst, just a blockage or slow moving bile, and that her bile duct is just a little larger than normal. Dr J thinks that the cyst is still there.  The plan is to do another ultrasound in 3 months and then a MRI when she is 12-18 months (unless she becomes symptomatic before) to get a better view of the area. She is still too small to be able to really get a good picture of what is going on in there. He thinks she will eventually need surgery to remove the cyst and repair the area.  I am thankful for his watchfulness and caution. But also think he is wrong. I really hope he is wrong. The last thing I want is for Finley to have to endure another surgery.

There are so many positives – that she didn’t need the surgery at 2 1/2 months, that we have skilled doctors following her closely, our proximity to excellent medical care- that she is in God’s hands always.  For this rare condition, most people don’t know they have these cysts until much later in life and if untreated for long period of time, these cysts can create cancer in the bile duct due to the long term inflammation. We are so fortunate to already be watching this area.

So we wait (again).  God really wants to teach me patience and trust. We wait and we pray. For the bile duct to shrink back to normal size and that there is no choledochal cyst hiding in there.  This, I will not fear. Remember fear, you aren’t welcome.  I really think he is wrong.  God – let him see your power.