Thursday. I wasn’t expecting that.
I went to the Doctors appointment just expecting to have a normal ultrasound, the joyous event of having my membranes stripped (insert sarcasm), and to schedule the induction for Monday if things didn’t happen before then, as we had discussed previously. But then the math on the ultrasound measurements returned with Finley now in the 10% category for growth and even though the ultrasound tech thinks because of many reasons (Finley head down low, kept moving and breathing like crazy) she didn’t get good measurements and we both think that this result is totally wrong – because it could be accurate, the Dr can’t wait until Monday to intervene. That means if Finley doesn’t come before then, I am checking in to Emanuell at 5:00AM on Thursday to begin the induction process. Based on their math – they think she will be a little over 6 pounds. But the ultrasound tech and I talked about how you can see fat rolls on her, and she has those chubby cheeks- we think she is totally going to be bigger than that. She predicted 8 pounds. I just don’t believe there is anything going sideways with her growth- but I am going to trust that there is a reason we need to go this route (if it comes to that). God has gotten us this far and there have been so many praises – so I will just continue to trust and have faith.
My stats: 1.5 cm dilated, -1 station, and 70% effaced – not a ton of progress this week…. Her BPP was 8/8.
So here we are, almost at the end/beginning of the next phase of our journey. What we need prayer for….
1. Whatever God’s timing is for her arrival, just that the labor goes smoothly and there are no complications and her entrance into the world is easy – and no C-section for me.
2. That she stabilizes quickly and does not develop pulmonary hypertension.
3. Pray for wisdom for the doctors and nurses to make all the right decisions regarding our/her care.
4. That she is strong and stable and does not require ECMO.
5. That they are able to do her surgery quickly and that God uses Dr Bliss to heal Finley.
6. That God uses Jon, Finley and I and this situation to his glory- may Finley’s recovery just be astounding and a testimony to God’s power.
7. Strength, peace and calm for Jon and I… Help us to be a support to one another and lift each other up, rather than unleash negative emotions upon each other.
8. That Finley recovers quickly and gains strength after the surgery and there are no further complications.
I know I am asking a lot – but I am praying boldly (as my friend Cody would say) and am petitioning God for all these things and know that through him – all things are possible.
A friend shared this verse with me and I love this version of Philippians 4:6-7 from The Message;
“Don’t fret or worry. Instead of worrying, pray. Let petitions and praises shape your worries into prayers, letting God know your concerns. Before you know it, a sense of God’s wholeness, everything coming together for good, will come and settle you down. It’s wonderful what happens when Christ displaces worry at the center of your life.”
Thursday or Friday Finley will be making her grand appearance and beginning her fight – I can’t wait to meet her. I just know this little girl is going to astound me.