37 weeks + 4 days

Well, I am officially full term, even though we want her to stay “cooking” for another week and half at least.  I got the BEST present today at my ultrasound appointment- the ultrasound tech took at ton of 3D images. I have included a few of them here – including the one of Finley smiling! It made me cry to see my baby so clearly.  She stuck her tongue out at us a few times and gave the best pouty face. Such a blessing to be able to see her already like this. LOVE her chubby cheeks!! I can’t wait to meet her. The appointment went well – she scored an 8/8 for her BPP, my fluids are at  24 – the high end of normal, but Dr Lee isn’t worried and NO progression since last check… still at 1cm, 50% effaced, -3 station.  Just trusting in God to carry us through.  I have never spent so much time in prayer – I am definitely learning to bring all things to him and praying boldly.

Please continue to pray that her lungs will be functionally mature, that she doesn’t develop pulmonary hypertension after birth, and that she stabilizes quickly and they are able to do the surgery within days rather than weeks.  Also please pray for babies Noah, Niklas, Elijah, and Whitney currently fighting their battles (see other CDH blogs for their stories)…

Psalm 33: 20-23 “Our soul waits for the LORD, he is our help and our shield. For our heart is glad in him, because we trust in his holy name. Let your steadfast love, O LORD, be upon us, even as we hope in you.”

36 weeks…. the countdown continues…..

I am making the rounds at Northwest Perinatal. Met another partner today, Dr Watson – everyone there is wonderful and I know that regardless of who I draw when I go into labor – I will be in good hands. NST went fabulously and they said she is looking great. Had my Strep B test and will find out in a few days about that. He checked me and my cervix is soft and I am about 1 cm dilated, but he thinks it should be still a few weeks. This is not uncommon for a second pregnancy. I am not to take anything that is supposed to ripen/soften the cervix because they don’t want ANY chance of her coming early.  He said 39/40 weeks would be perfect – so that is what I am praying for.

Thank you for all your prayers for both Finley and myself (and Jon). I do really feel a sense of peace about what lies ahead and that can only be God. If this were left to just me alone, I would be in full out obsessive freak-out mode.  Don’t get me wrong, I’m not in the perfect Zen place all the time – I do get scared and worried and my mind wanders – but I try to bring it back and pray and I know that God is in control. Finley is in his hands and I have to trust in him and his plan.

“Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.”Deuteronomy 31:6

35 weeks, 5 days

I will start right off with the good news… Her growth was 37% this time (up from 31% last time) and they estimate her to be 5lbs 11 oz right now.  Heart looks good, doesn’t seem to be under extra pressure from the organs in the chest cavity, and no fluid accumulation. My amniotic fluid is looking good at 19 which is at the higher end of normal, but not excessive yet. You’d think that my stomach was extra big hearing strangers go – “whoa, any day now, huh?”

Praise God for listening to our prayers, and I just hold steady to believing that all these things in her favor will mean that she will have the strength to fight once she is here and God has plans for my little one.  I will be 36 weeks as of Friday – and I can’t believe that she will be here in 2-4 weeks.  My finish line is approaching and her starting line.

I’m not posting the ultrasound shots because they aren’t very good this time.

Prayer requests:

1. That her lung growth will continue and that we will all be amazed by how much lung she has at birth!

2. That she does not get the severe pulmonary hypertension after birth.

3. No ECMO is needed after birth.

4. That she stabilizes quickly and surgery can happen within days of her birth.

5. That she says in until at least 38 weeks.

6. Prayers for other CDH babies currently in the hospital around the country fighting; Noah, Niklas, and Elijah.

Psalm 34:3 “I sought the Lord and he answered me and delivered me from all my fears.”

34 weeks

The weeks just keep flying by. I can’t believe that she could be here in as little as 4 weeks.. The NST was uneventful – though it is funny that if they are sleeping, they buzz them with this vibrating buzzer to get them to move around some more.  Basically, they try to annoy them. They said her heartbeat looked really good and they didn’t see anything that was a cause for concern. I did ask more about the growth issue and apparently between the last 2 ultrasounds her growth dropped from a 40-something% percentile to 30-something % (I need Jon to be in these appointments to actually remember things) but they will need one more scan before they call it a trend since ultrasound error can be 10%.. So I am just hoping and praying that it is exactly that- an ultrasound error and not indicative of a trend. Apparently if she drops down to 10%, it will be time to get her out… These are worries I don’t want so I just pray that this is all nothing, or that she catches up this week.  The next ultrasound is next week.

Rowan did the cutest thing the other day.. she lifted up my shirt (which she likes to do a lot), kissed my belly and said, “I love my baby sister.”  There is nothing I want more in this world than for the day when Rowan is able to hold and kiss baby Finley.